Fel, this is for you. Because u've been one of the best friends a person can find.

U have altruistically put in the effort for the ones u love (friends and family), and u took the time and patience to listen to them. After 2 months of IBP - and after getting the chance to know u better - we both realised that we are almost characteristically akin. Just that mayb u are alot louder and expressive than I. But whatever it is, I feel very fortunate to have met u. A person with so much love to give, who understands, and who feels for others. I would like to say a lot more, but for fear of sounding moderately gay, I close my note to u here.

Thank you so much for being such a friend to me. I love you.

(I hope that didn't come across too queer.)

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NOTE: HEAVY CONTENT

In this world, there're alot of negative qualities in which people possess. Even too much of a certain good trait can reap a negative effect. Hypocrisy, lying, pretense, "bitchy-ness" (if that can b considered an attribute. I don't think many would disagree), etc.. Truth is, we're all a little bit hypocritical, we all slip a lie or 2, and we're all a tad pretentious. "Bitchy-ness"? Needless to say, most of us are to an extent. U know that time ur boyfriend pissed u off so badly, u called ur friend and spent the next 45 mins complaining about it? And how he's being a bastard and everything else? Yea, bitching. That's why sometimes, I ask myself, what constitutes a hypocrite, or a liar, since we're all a bit of everything ourselves.

I always imagined all these bad qualities to have a kind of boundary. Those who keep within that boundary are pretty normal. The ones who step over it are then worthy (so "worthy" isn't really the most suitable word here) to be labelled "hypocrite" or "bitch" or whatever. Of cos, this boundary - standard - is very subjective. So it's completely up to each individual to cypher a standard their most comfortable with.

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Well, since the last time I blogged. Many birthdays have came and went. Dan's, Alicia's, my brother's, my very own 19th. I spent the night before my birthday at Villa Bali with a bunch of mass comm-ers, and we had a bloody good time. For a while, I actually forgot I had/have (cos they havent' gone away yet) problems.

This's all the visual aid I can afford to share without giving away too much of the fun we had. The only thing we lacked that night was a waterfall of alcohol, but a handful of us were pretty high on life so we settled for that.

So a birthday is like a new beginning right? And most of us seek changes - for us non goths, it's to change for the good - after our annual celebration. The bulk of us aim and work to make our lives better, ourselves happier. Well, for me, I aim to make the the back half or more (hopefully) of my 19th year a very satisfying and joyful back half. Gonna try to smile thru the storm.

Anyway, to end off my entry, here's an abstract of lyrics from 4 different songs that were introduced to me not too long ago.